I’m so happy!!

I just got a job for March break!!!!! That was my first interview and i got the job. I’m feeling so proud right now!!!

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Valentine’s, birthday and one month card for my man!

So I took a long time to write this and I think its pretty creative. Tell me what you think in the comments down below!

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I still can’t get over how it is Valentine’s day, your birthday and our one month! When you first messaged me I was like “oh hey” but as the days went by and we started learning things about each other and started to have actual conversations… I started falling for you.  I never knew that we would end up in a relationship because I didn’t think you would like me. When you told me that you liked me I was extremely happy. That was the best day of my life. There’s one way that I know how to tell you how much I love you and that’s threw music!

“When you smile, the whole world stops and stares for awhile, cause you’re amazing, just the way you are.” ~Bruno Mars (Just The Way You Are). “And I can’t help but stare, cause I see truth somewhere in your eyes.”~Justin Timberlake (Mirrors). “Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do, like they were all yellow.” ~Cold Play (Yellow). “Cause all of me loves all of you.” ~John Legend (All Of Me). “Cause, honey your soul could never grow old, it’s evergreen and, baby, your smile’s forever in my mind and memory.” ~Ed Sheeran (Thinking Out Loud). “You’re still the one I run to, the one that I belong to, you’re still the one I want for life.” ~Shania Twain (You’re Still The One). “Love me tender; love me sweet. Never let me go.” Elvis. “When you need some shelter from the rain, when you need a healer for your pain, I will be there time and time again.” ~Leona Lewis (Here I Am). “And if you want to cry, I am here to dry your eyes and in no time, you’ll be fine.” ~Sade (By Your Side). “I may not have the softest touch. I may not say the words as such. And though I may not look like much….I’m yours.” ~The Script (I’m Yours). “Maybe I don’t know that much but I know this much is true, I was blessed because I was loved by you.” ~Celine Dion (Because You Loved Me). “Remember those walls I built? Well, baby they’re tumbling down and they didn’t even put up a fight, they didn’t even make a sound.” ~Beyonce (Halo). “Close your eyes, let me tell you all the reasons why, think you’re one of a kind. Here’s to you, the one that always pulls us through, always do what you gotta do. You’re one of a kind. Thank God you’re mine.” ~Michael Buble (Close Your Eyes). “I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words how wonderful life is while you’re in the world.” ~Elton John (Your Song). “Thank you for loving me, for being my eyes when I couldn’t see.” ~Bon Jovi (Thank You For Loving Me).

You’re my everything and I never want to lose you. Happy Valentine`s day, Happy one month and most importantly HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!  

 

Was it good?

WTF

I hate my life. Like seriously…. I’m 16 turning 17 in a March. I wish my parents would stop treating me like a freaking kid. I wish they would stop talking about me behind my back and laughing at me.

I can’t wait till I can move out and never have to see them again. They laughed at me when I told them I used to self-harm and was suicidal…. they think I’m saying that stuff for attention. Wow I really see that they care about me. NO I’M NOT DOING THAT FOR ATTENTION. I NEVER WOULD CUT MY SKIN FOR ATTENTION. I’m super depressed and they don’t even see that.

What makes things even worse is when you have a sister who makes you feel like **** and worthless. Who bullies you and tells you that no one would miss you. That no one would notice your gone. Who threatens that she will kill you like all the time.

I’ve been fighting this for a long time. I said to myself I will not let her win. But it’s gone to far now. I’m giving up. I don’t have that much energy any more to keep on fighting. She will probably show this post to my parents and then they can have a great laugh together but seriously I’m hurting…. like can’t they see that?

This is just getting to the point where I don’t see any hope. I used to say that I’m staying on this horrible earth because of my family but now I’m staying because of my friends and because of one person in particular. My parents always said get rid of all people who make you upset and that’s exactly what I am going to do. Them.